new discoveries have me feeling dumb as hell right now. why am i letting this go on. i don't know how to leave him. feels like he don't know how to leave me either. we're doomed if nothing drastic happens or changes soon then we're both just being nice stuck in a lackluster relationship. maybe i just need to know what he is thinking. maybe his thoughts aren't matching mines. i need to know though and he isn't telling me. he only answers questions. thats not good enough for me. i need him to give me the real like right now.
its crazy though! when we're together everything feels so right. so normal so amazing. but when he's away. my brain takes over. too many thoughts and visions and no sleep. just me and misery. ugh! but why does it have to be this way. why are men so dumb. regardless of age. what the hell?
but if it weren't for her! i'd prob be moving on. it would prob be easier to give up. anything for my mo though!
